result out liao..~~

Today 12am sharp, i open SMPWEB. Thanks God, I passed my 1st sem even my result not so good. But still thanks to God very very much. It is nothing without Him. Continue Sem 2..=)

The end of my 1st semester~~

Yea... thanks God, finally finished mt 1st semester in UKM. Finished the last paper on thursday noon, but result sure not so good.. Hope could pass all my papers.

After ended the last paper, I went to Kajang to eat satay with my coursemate and theyn, continue play DOtA with coursemate until the next day... so crazy..@@ nvm la.. last day liao, so enjoy with coursemates before holidays...=)

After finished exam, I feel so bored. wasting my 3 days holidays by doing nothing in UKM... argh... Sunday morning have to checkout, i feel so happy, but actually my flight is on monday 9am morning. I have to spend my time in room until evening, and go to airport by KTM to Nilai, and then change bus to KLIA.

I beh tahan with the bus driver. Counting money sambil drive the bus... wow, just now sikit lagi accident.. stupid wira din see our bus coming to his way in roundabout thanks God, nothing happened. Now I reached KLIA, and have sit here doing nothing and wait until 9am to fly, and 12 hours more to reach my home... Hope could found a socket for my laptop...sleepy...~.~

UNITED SERVICE

What a blessed weekend... thanks God, the combined spiritual meeting just ended just ended in Kajang Church. Everybody is full with great spiritual food by preachers. May God bless all of us to continue to serve Him in unity of the believers...

GOD BLESS...=)

UNITED SERVICE

What a blessed weekend... thanks God, the combined spiritual meeting just ended just ended in Kajang Church. Everybody is full with great spiritual food by preachers. May God bless all of us to continue to serve Him in unity of the believers...

GOD BLESS...=)

1 more paper to go..

Just finished my Titas today.. 10 days to go.. minus tomorow go out with frens and 2 days KKR in Kajang church = 7 days more.. Hope i can score it well in my math, cause I did it badly during mid-Sem.. hmn.. Sleep 1st rest my mind and body... Nights

Life still go on...

Everything is ruined....Argh...!!!!!

Just finished the 1st paper last nite. I feel so sad. I did not do well. Many blank on my answer sheet. Really stress. What I studied never out, and the formula never came out from my mind during exam. Everyone did so well. The hand non-stop writing on the exam sheet. I just dreaming for the 2 and half hours. Did not know what to write. I felt want to cry last nite during exam.. I am just such a loser.. haiz...T.T PHYSIC ENGINEERING...!!! I DO NOT WANT TO MEET YOU NEXT SEMESTER....!!!!

What should I do? What happened if I failed? Shall I came back to here to UKM? But i feel so shameful.. embarrassing.. No face to face with my family. I have already made a scar on my degree transcript. I feel so upset. What happened to me? I does this thing comes to me? I do not know what to do. NO..NO...NO....!!!!!!!!

Who am I? I don't see I am good in anything. Rubbish? or more worse that rubbish..? Hmn.. People gets what they study, and what about me? EMPTY CAN...

If I failed, like wasting my time and money here... My life like no direction. I just want to study to achieve my vision. But I already failed at the beginning. No wonder people said. Let it all just happen as God's will..

STUPIDITY HAS NO CURE..

And probably that is me....

Last countdown

I woke up at the early morning. The weather was cold and realized my cloth still at outside since yesterday. Hope it will dry by today. Please don't let me sick at this exam period.

26th October 2010. TOday i am going to study my material science..And my exam started tomorrow... Good luck to all my friends in their exam, especially those who has paper on everyday.. Gambateh all..

Studying

2 more days for the 1st paper in UKM... currently studying in Perpustakaan Tun Sri Lanang. Rainy day caused my cloth wet.. hmn... today want to cover thermodynamics and material science for tomorrow. Sit on exam on wednesday. Gambateh all.

A happy weekend ~ A little testimony

Thanks God, today i joined the outdoor activities with the REU in kajang church. We went to Taman Pertanian in Bukit Cahaya, Shah Alam and High 5 bread factory. It was wonderful trip, even I slept inside the bus.

I feel great when being here. Could join church activities. My exam coming soon, yet my feeling still with Him. I know He has guided me to further my study in UKM here. And i believe that He will guide me through all of the problems I will face in future. I hope this following years can train my faith to a better one. That reminds me a theme during the youth fellowship in Sabah.


To The Better Serving.


He has His plan on me. I hope that what i learned at here whether in UKM or at Kajang church here, I could use all what I have learned to serve Him. The faith to God sometimes hard to sustainable..

Just like what the bible said in Gospel of Mark "the spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak".. May God always strengthen my faith and everyone in Christ. Amen.

20-10-2010

20102010, what a nice date for my 22nd birthday.. I am thank to God, for His Love and Grace that I am still under His care.

I received my birthday present from my Faculty.. It was my Mid Sem result for math. And my result is terrible. I don't know why. Why didn't I feel sad or bad mood? Maybe i already know the results or God is comforting me. Thanks God.

Engineer never fails otherwise it will be ruined. But I don't know what am I thinking now. Hmn.. I wish to climb back from the fallen I did. No mood to study, and Exam is coming.

I just wish i could pass, then it will be ok.. Hope my transcript won't ugly.. I know I am unable to get A for my math and other subjects. There is a little hope, and I still can fix it during final exam. Gambateh.

Life still go on...

Exam~~

Here come the final exam.. Finally, and now is has brought forward one week earlier. There are 2 PBL need to pass up and present. Gosh.. Dunno hw to do... Hw ah?

When troubles come.

What will you do, when trouble comes to you? This live is full with thorns.
Do not know how to face with it.
Works always increase.
But never know how to do.

I do not know how to do.
I am depressed.
I am sad.
I am disappointed.
I feel no mood.
I feel so hopeless.

What can I do?
What should I do?

Exam is coming, assignments still have many left.

What will I get for my exam?
Shall I give up?

WHAT IS THE PURPOSE OF LIVING IN THIS WORLD???

AARRRGGGGHHHH.......!!!!

Mooncake Festival

This year I wasn't celebrate mooncake festival with my family. Miss to eat mooncake so muc. After back to campus, Jia Xian gave me a mooncake. We shared and eat together. So nice. And later on, I just remember that my cousin also gave me one double yolks mooncake before I back to campus.

No worries, there are to Pesta Tanglung events, which are PT kolej and PT Pusat. During PT koloej on 22th September 2010, we only do it among our Han hua only. Unlike other kolej, they did some activities such as bazaar, and karnival in their college. We Han Hua only gathered together at the bottom hill of Burhanuddin college. We hang lanterns and play games and also riddles. We eat mooncake and enjoy iced chinese tea. Only few of our seniors were attended it, because most of them were having their mid-term. After that, we bring our lantern and walk to KTAM. feel so good, and I was only holding First Aid Kit. We sit down at the car park of KTAM and do sharing. After back to college, we, junior still haven't dismissed yet. We play some more games. We were enjoyed and Sui Peng(senior) also joined us. She was the only senior who hang with us until end. We all play guessing number. All of us very happy. It has strengthen the bond among us as Han Hua.






















Last night 24th September 2010, we went to Persatuan Hokkien. There is a PT Carnival by the PT pusat. many people went there and there are a lots of shows and canopy stalls. We, han hua junior also went there together. We waited the bus about half an hour. It was a raining night, but still have people went there. We all were happy, especially during on the way back to the campus. We, burhanian was the most noisy in the bus. HAhaha.. We have a joyful night. It was also a great memory for me with other han hua friends.




Burhan Han Hua, we all are family.

Carrying back the cross

Today the 1st day of lecture after holiday. My holidays mood still ON..=.=

I feel so hard. My assignments, project, quizzes and test too. Still have many to do. I feel so scared with all of it. This world wont be forever. Will be destroyed one day. My test on wednesday. Havent study yet, and still have many to read. Why i still so relax? What am I going to be in the future? haiz. God, please help me. Am I going to go through all of this? Where can I release all of this sadness? Nobody will understand me..T.T only You.

I am now at the middle of the sea. I need something to hold. Only You, my Lord. I come to study to learn something to serve you. But yet, i still not satisfy with myself. My mood of studying still not activate et. Is it because I have stopped from studying about one year? Hmn.. Please open my way. Show me the way. You are my only hope. Please strengthen me to carrying this cross You has given to me. Guide me, as a lost sheep. i am lost in this world. I need You, my Lord. Amen.

Life still going on.

Heart of a Servant

Holiday is ended. I am now just back to campus from Kajang church. Thanks God, I really have a great holiday by spending it with Him. I attended extended theology in Olive Garden, Port Dickson for one week.

We learned about the book of Ezekiel by Pr. Ezekiel and Paul's letter; 1&2 Thessalonian and 1&2 Timothy by Pr Lai An Chuan. We learned about the criteria we need as a servant of God. I have met some new brethren from West Malaysia here during the theology.

After ended, there is a national youth committee seminar, be held in Kajang church and Broga Outpac. Many youth committee around West Malaysia joined the seminar.

I wasn't in the list, but I was asked to replace Bro. Wilson to atttend it. We enjoying the outdoor activities in Broga Outpac. We cancelled the hill climbing because of the heavy rain at the yesterday night. In the same time we also learned about the leadership which taught by Dn Jeremiah Chong, Dn. Isaiah and another Deacon( don't know his name). We divided to our own church and plan activity for 1st half year in 2010 which is called Program Adam 2011. Every churches presented many great ideas.

The time ended so fast. Everyone back to their hometown. And I am going back to my hometown. May God always be with all of you. And hope to see you guys soon...

Shalom and Ping an...

T.T miss my theology in Sabah..

Holidays Mood...ACTIVATED

I received a call from my last sunday.. My grandma has passed away on that morning about 10am++.. A lovely grandma.. Thanks God, she lived in this world for 91 years. now it is the time to back to His side. She passed away in peacefully. First person I met, who never fall sick in her life. Even flu , cough or fever. A healthy grandma.. And she just passed away because of old and weak.. And, I have no chance to go home and see her for the last time. But, I will meet her when the time has come.=)

Now is my Uni semester break for 2 weeks. I am going to Port Dickson for the Extended Theology Course about one week.. Perhaps, it is the time for me to spend my time to with Him. I still have another Mid Sem for my physic engineering after holiday... Yet, I still dont understand.. But, will cover it after back from theology.

Now,I am going to declare:

HOLIDAYS MOOD ACTIVATED!

Happy Holiday....=)

JKEES 2010/2011

Last night, was our faculty night..Faculty of Engineering.. Everyone was enjoy, and my coursemate as well.. The part we most enjoy was the sketch..During the practice, we did a lot of mistakes.. And our storyline was changed to a new one in 3 weeks time.. We have Ip man, the Axe gang, and some martial art specialist.. Also even Dota hero...>.< Thanks to all jkees/1.. coming out with all the ideas.. to make a great story... even also changed and edited some parts during the presentation.. Well, everyone come out with the spirit of sketching, and everyone of us could be a good actor.. Accept me.. i am only a technician...>.<

Well, guys.. congratulation to all of us.. And also our to our seniors..Who were accompany us practicing during the night before Faculty Night.One our friend didn't come... She was sick.. But, we will never forget about her.. Because she is also one of us, JKEES( Jabatan Kejuruteraan Elektrik, Elektronik dan Sistem)..



Girls:
1. Tan Shwu Teng
2. Lim Shi Han
3. Low May Wei

Guys:
1. Chew Jia Xien
2. Lim Wei Keong
3. Andrick Chiang
4. Yeoh Jih Jie
5. Wan Wai Kien
6. Andy Chou
7. Chua Wee Kiong
8. Wong Chong wai
9. Thong Kar Wah
10. CHoi Meng Liang
11. Ling Chee Hong
12. Teow Yong Chuan
13. Lee Mun Jun
14. Tang Moon Wai
15. Chan Chee Tat
16. Sai Chong Yeh
17. JasonLeong Kah Seing
18. Lee Chin Vui

Wish all of us will become a great engineers..
Jia you, guys... Gambateh..!!!

I am a snail, not a tortoise, I am a toy car, not a sport car; I am a pedestrian, not a runner...

My study is killing me.. My math is making me dead... Feel very hard... My neurons are slow.. Hard to understand.. especially math.. need to do step by step.. cannot skip the step, if not, i will die... Everyone so clever.. can catch up everything in few second.. my ratio to them is 1:1000 fast in understanding things... Gosh... how am I going to survive... After holiday got another mid sem for physic engineering.. Lagi kanasai.... My last time taking physic and chemistry was about 5 years ago... During SPM 2005....>.<>

Taking the root downward...

Assignments, quizzes, and mid-sem..... I am getting busy in getting ready for all these... But still can still feeling empty in my heart. I need comfort, peace.... Thanks God, I still have time to go to church at this weekend and overnight there.. after sabbath service, we, the tertiary students were sitting together and sharing about our life in campus.. everyone shared their feeling.. How does God helped them during all the difficulty. I also remembered the time He guided me during my diploma life. In church, is the best place. I am glad can spend my time and serving Him in here. Together with the youth here joining activities.. Singing praise the Lord, even my voice not so good.. But, still enjoy it.. Feels the joy in Him.. Thank you, Lord.

Tomorrow(30/8/10) and friday(3/9/10) has haave math quiz. Still don't understand at all. Feel want to ponteng service.. but, I didn't.... I still made it.. Although I am still doubting about myself, and worrying about my study during service and it is not good to do so..... but I believe He understand me.. Living in the flesh and become weak.. I prayed to Him.. Long time never do so.. Communicate with Him alone inside the chapel since leaving Sabah.. Life as student full of stresses... Perhaps, this is our cross... How difficult the life is, how difficult the study is, nothing is going to stop us from serving Him and praising Him..

Take root downward, bear fruit upward..

Sorrow, lugubrious, dismal...~~~ U.U

Quiz, quiz and quiz.... 6 weeks... It has been 6th week... What have i gained? People answered easily, and me? Pass up with an empty paper... Gosh...!!! Feel so stupid with myself.. People can understand easily, but me? Just like a kindergarten standard.. Didn't understand even 20%... Other people could understand what the lessons are about.. Just like taking an aeroplane to reach the destination in the short time. But me, need to travel by my feet.. So lame and damn slow... How to catch up? My brain has malfunctioned? How am i going to take my MidSem test? So sad...

Just like a seed fell among the thorns.. Am I able to bear all this? 4 years.. I need to face all of this for four years... Betting my time in here... Can this seed able to face all of this and grew up in this four year? I bring my vision to here. I come to study not for myself. God, please help me.. You are the only one who knows how is my feeling is. Please show me the way. Cheer me, just like how you cheered Jonah. Guide me, just like how you guide Moses and Joshua. I can't face and bear all of this.. You are my only help....~~~ T.T

The new house of the seed~~

I was afraid before come to UKM here. There is no people who I know. Only Him accompany me. My meal time has delayed, and afraid to get gastric. In KK, I already inform or send and letter of announcement to Malaysia GA that I will come to KL here to study, perhaps will attending service in Kajang Church. Thanks God, Preacher Joseph called me on the day I arrived to KL. I was staying at my cousin's that day. I am glad to hear that there is a brother who is also studying in UKM too.

Until the 3rd week I am in UKM, I managed to go to church, KTM. What great arrangement from HIM. There is a KTM station near UKM and our campus also prepared the bus to send and pick-up students in the station. And, I go to Kajang KTM station alone. Bro. Vincent Lai picked me up and go to church. I am very happy. Finally can reach to His house. So miss to go to church.

Thanks God, at here I am able to attend church service, joining choir and youth class too. I hope that i could spent more time to go to church. His church is the best place to go. I will arrange my time, so can go to church every time.

Immanuel~~

A new seed

Hmnn.. This blog is dead for 8 months.. well.. Thanks God, I am now currently further my study in Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia, Bangi selangor here.. This is a great experience.. My first time to travel alone to a new place where nobody i know.

I really never think that I am studying in University now.. The university life doesn't like as my Diploma life. There are many activities can be joined. what i mean is, there are many opportunities for us hear to learn except book knowledge. In University, the students are encouraged to improve their soft skills.

We were given speech by the Professors, and some invited guests. They are all educating us to be a graduates, which not only success in the academic, but also rich with soft skills, which are useful for us to find job and become a marketable fresh graduates. 4 years to go, and I am now in the beginning. Hope I could succeed to obtained my Degree scroll with Honour ^^ and become a marketable engineer. To hope to have a great happiness life with my family and my beloved. My age maybe quite late to graduate, but as long as I hardworking and seek God.

I CAN DO IT. YES I CAN!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010

Dong.... Dong... Dong... I starred the clock. It wanted to tell me it is now 12am... Started from from this moment, we just turned into a new era. 1st January 2010. Once again, time past so fast. 2009 has just passed. Let's close your eyes, and think. What did we do in 2009...?

Anything we haven't done yet? Maybe we wish to do it, but we have no chance or feel shy to face it.

Anything we did until hurt people around us..? When we born to a family, they will be our family forever. Our beloved, will be the beloved one forever. Friends we know, will be friend until forever.

In the year 2010, I would like to wish Happy New Year to my family and all my friends. Please accept my apologize if there anything I did accidently hurted you.

I AM SORRY

In the year 2010, I wish all of us could wake up and start a new life. Hopefully this New Year could brings New Hope to you and have a happy life.

HAPPY NEW YEAR...!!!!

* Am i talking craps? please comment some.. thank you...