Taking the root downward...

Assignments, quizzes, and mid-sem..... I am getting busy in getting ready for all these... But still can still feeling empty in my heart. I need comfort, peace.... Thanks God, I still have time to go to church at this weekend and overnight there.. after sabbath service, we, the tertiary students were sitting together and sharing about our life in campus.. everyone shared their feeling.. How does God helped them during all the difficulty. I also remembered the time He guided me during my diploma life. In church, is the best place. I am glad can spend my time and serving Him in here. Together with the youth here joining activities.. Singing praise the Lord, even my voice not so good.. But, still enjoy it.. Feels the joy in Him.. Thank you, Lord.

Tomorrow(30/8/10) and friday(3/9/10) has haave math quiz. Still don't understand at all. Feel want to ponteng service.. but, I didn't.... I still made it.. Although I am still doubting about myself, and worrying about my study during service and it is not good to do so..... but I believe He understand me.. Living in the flesh and become weak.. I prayed to Him.. Long time never do so.. Communicate with Him alone inside the chapel since leaving Sabah.. Life as student full of stresses... Perhaps, this is our cross... How difficult the life is, how difficult the study is, nothing is going to stop us from serving Him and praising Him..

Take root downward, bear fruit upward..

Sorrow, lugubrious, dismal...~~~ U.U

Quiz, quiz and quiz.... 6 weeks... It has been 6th week... What have i gained? People answered easily, and me? Pass up with an empty paper... Gosh...!!! Feel so stupid with myself.. People can understand easily, but me? Just like a kindergarten standard.. Didn't understand even 20%... Other people could understand what the lessons are about.. Just like taking an aeroplane to reach the destination in the short time. But me, need to travel by my feet.. So lame and damn slow... How to catch up? My brain has malfunctioned? How am i going to take my MidSem test? So sad...

Just like a seed fell among the thorns.. Am I able to bear all this? 4 years.. I need to face all of this for four years... Betting my time in here... Can this seed able to face all of this and grew up in this four year? I bring my vision to here. I come to study not for myself. God, please help me.. You are the only one who knows how is my feeling is. Please show me the way. Cheer me, just like how you cheered Jonah. Guide me, just like how you guide Moses and Joshua. I can't face and bear all of this.. You are my only help....~~~ T.T

The new house of the seed~~

I was afraid before come to UKM here. There is no people who I know. Only Him accompany me. My meal time has delayed, and afraid to get gastric. In KK, I already inform or send and letter of announcement to Malaysia GA that I will come to KL here to study, perhaps will attending service in Kajang Church. Thanks God, Preacher Joseph called me on the day I arrived to KL. I was staying at my cousin's that day. I am glad to hear that there is a brother who is also studying in UKM too.

Until the 3rd week I am in UKM, I managed to go to church, KTM. What great arrangement from HIM. There is a KTM station near UKM and our campus also prepared the bus to send and pick-up students in the station. And, I go to Kajang KTM station alone. Bro. Vincent Lai picked me up and go to church. I am very happy. Finally can reach to His house. So miss to go to church.

Thanks God, at here I am able to attend church service, joining choir and youth class too. I hope that i could spent more time to go to church. His church is the best place to go. I will arrange my time, so can go to church every time.

Immanuel~~

A new seed

Hmnn.. This blog is dead for 8 months.. well.. Thanks God, I am now currently further my study in Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia, Bangi selangor here.. This is a great experience.. My first time to travel alone to a new place where nobody i know.

I really never think that I am studying in University now.. The university life doesn't like as my Diploma life. There are many activities can be joined. what i mean is, there are many opportunities for us hear to learn except book knowledge. In University, the students are encouraged to improve their soft skills.

We were given speech by the Professors, and some invited guests. They are all educating us to be a graduates, which not only success in the academic, but also rich with soft skills, which are useful for us to find job and become a marketable fresh graduates. 4 years to go, and I am now in the beginning. Hope I could succeed to obtained my Degree scroll with Honour ^^ and become a marketable engineer. To hope to have a great happiness life with my family and my beloved. My age maybe quite late to graduate, but as long as I hardworking and seek God.

I CAN DO IT. YES I CAN!!