Carrying back the cross

Today the 1st day of lecture after holiday. My holidays mood still ON..=.=

I feel so hard. My assignments, project, quizzes and test too. Still have many to do. I feel so scared with all of it. This world wont be forever. Will be destroyed one day. My test on wednesday. Havent study yet, and still have many to read. Why i still so relax? What am I going to be in the future? haiz. God, please help me. Am I going to go through all of this? Where can I release all of this sadness? Nobody will understand me..T.T only You.

I am now at the middle of the sea. I need something to hold. Only You, my Lord. I come to study to learn something to serve you. But yet, i still not satisfy with myself. My mood of studying still not activate et. Is it because I have stopped from studying about one year? Hmn.. Please open my way. Show me the way. You are my only hope. Please strengthen me to carrying this cross You has given to me. Guide me, as a lost sheep. i am lost in this world. I need You, my Lord. Amen.

Life still going on.

Heart of a Servant

Holiday is ended. I am now just back to campus from Kajang church. Thanks God, I really have a great holiday by spending it with Him. I attended extended theology in Olive Garden, Port Dickson for one week.

We learned about the book of Ezekiel by Pr. Ezekiel and Paul's letter; 1&2 Thessalonian and 1&2 Timothy by Pr Lai An Chuan. We learned about the criteria we need as a servant of God. I have met some new brethren from West Malaysia here during the theology.

After ended, there is a national youth committee seminar, be held in Kajang church and Broga Outpac. Many youth committee around West Malaysia joined the seminar.

I wasn't in the list, but I was asked to replace Bro. Wilson to atttend it. We enjoying the outdoor activities in Broga Outpac. We cancelled the hill climbing because of the heavy rain at the yesterday night. In the same time we also learned about the leadership which taught by Dn Jeremiah Chong, Dn. Isaiah and another Deacon( don't know his name). We divided to our own church and plan activity for 1st half year in 2010 which is called Program Adam 2011. Every churches presented many great ideas.

The time ended so fast. Everyone back to their hometown. And I am going back to my hometown. May God always be with all of you. And hope to see you guys soon...

Shalom and Ping an...

T.T miss my theology in Sabah..

Holidays Mood...ACTIVATED

I received a call from my last sunday.. My grandma has passed away on that morning about 10am++.. A lovely grandma.. Thanks God, she lived in this world for 91 years. now it is the time to back to His side. She passed away in peacefully. First person I met, who never fall sick in her life. Even flu , cough or fever. A healthy grandma.. And she just passed away because of old and weak.. And, I have no chance to go home and see her for the last time. But, I will meet her when the time has come.=)

Now is my Uni semester break for 2 weeks. I am going to Port Dickson for the Extended Theology Course about one week.. Perhaps, it is the time for me to spend my time to with Him. I still have another Mid Sem for my physic engineering after holiday... Yet, I still dont understand.. But, will cover it after back from theology.

Now,I am going to declare:

HOLIDAYS MOOD ACTIVATED!

Happy Holiday....=)

JKEES 2010/2011

Last night, was our faculty night..Faculty of Engineering.. Everyone was enjoy, and my coursemate as well.. The part we most enjoy was the sketch..During the practice, we did a lot of mistakes.. And our storyline was changed to a new one in 3 weeks time.. We have Ip man, the Axe gang, and some martial art specialist.. Also even Dota hero...>.< Thanks to all jkees/1.. coming out with all the ideas.. to make a great story... even also changed and edited some parts during the presentation.. Well, everyone come out with the spirit of sketching, and everyone of us could be a good actor.. Accept me.. i am only a technician...>.<

Well, guys.. congratulation to all of us.. And also our to our seniors..Who were accompany us practicing during the night before Faculty Night.One our friend didn't come... She was sick.. But, we will never forget about her.. Because she is also one of us, JKEES( Jabatan Kejuruteraan Elektrik, Elektronik dan Sistem)..



Girls:
1. Tan Shwu Teng
2. Lim Shi Han
3. Low May Wei

Guys:
1. Chew Jia Xien
2. Lim Wei Keong
3. Andrick Chiang
4. Yeoh Jih Jie
5. Wan Wai Kien
6. Andy Chou
7. Chua Wee Kiong
8. Wong Chong wai
9. Thong Kar Wah
10. CHoi Meng Liang
11. Ling Chee Hong
12. Teow Yong Chuan
13. Lee Mun Jun
14. Tang Moon Wai
15. Chan Chee Tat
16. Sai Chong Yeh
17. JasonLeong Kah Seing
18. Lee Chin Vui

Wish all of us will become a great engineers..
Jia you, guys... Gambateh..!!!

I am a snail, not a tortoise, I am a toy car, not a sport car; I am a pedestrian, not a runner...

My study is killing me.. My math is making me dead... Feel very hard... My neurons are slow.. Hard to understand.. especially math.. need to do step by step.. cannot skip the step, if not, i will die... Everyone so clever.. can catch up everything in few second.. my ratio to them is 1:1000 fast in understanding things... Gosh... how am I going to survive... After holiday got another mid sem for physic engineering.. Lagi kanasai.... My last time taking physic and chemistry was about 5 years ago... During SPM 2005....>.<>

Taking the root downward...

Assignments, quizzes, and mid-sem..... I am getting busy in getting ready for all these... But still can still feeling empty in my heart. I need comfort, peace.... Thanks God, I still have time to go to church at this weekend and overnight there.. after sabbath service, we, the tertiary students were sitting together and sharing about our life in campus.. everyone shared their feeling.. How does God helped them during all the difficulty. I also remembered the time He guided me during my diploma life. In church, is the best place. I am glad can spend my time and serving Him in here. Together with the youth here joining activities.. Singing praise the Lord, even my voice not so good.. But, still enjoy it.. Feels the joy in Him.. Thank you, Lord.

Tomorrow(30/8/10) and friday(3/9/10) has haave math quiz. Still don't understand at all. Feel want to ponteng service.. but, I didn't.... I still made it.. Although I am still doubting about myself, and worrying about my study during service and it is not good to do so..... but I believe He understand me.. Living in the flesh and become weak.. I prayed to Him.. Long time never do so.. Communicate with Him alone inside the chapel since leaving Sabah.. Life as student full of stresses... Perhaps, this is our cross... How difficult the life is, how difficult the study is, nothing is going to stop us from serving Him and praising Him..

Take root downward, bear fruit upward..

Sorrow, lugubrious, dismal...~~~ U.U

Quiz, quiz and quiz.... 6 weeks... It has been 6th week... What have i gained? People answered easily, and me? Pass up with an empty paper... Gosh...!!! Feel so stupid with myself.. People can understand easily, but me? Just like a kindergarten standard.. Didn't understand even 20%... Other people could understand what the lessons are about.. Just like taking an aeroplane to reach the destination in the short time. But me, need to travel by my feet.. So lame and damn slow... How to catch up? My brain has malfunctioned? How am i going to take my MidSem test? So sad...

Just like a seed fell among the thorns.. Am I able to bear all this? 4 years.. I need to face all of this for four years... Betting my time in here... Can this seed able to face all of this and grew up in this four year? I bring my vision to here. I come to study not for myself. God, please help me.. You are the only one who knows how is my feeling is. Please show me the way. Cheer me, just like how you cheered Jonah. Guide me, just like how you guide Moses and Joshua. I can't face and bear all of this.. You are my only help....~~~ T.T